Exhale. Inhale. Repeat. Just breathe.

For the past few days, I've felt so broken. You know that feeling where everything is falling apart inside but the outside appearance looks well put together. You're a really private person and perhaps it's just pride that keeps you from saying anything, so you fight the war on your own. Yes, depression rared its ugly head, death to that beast! Looks are definitely deceiving. I've got to stop running. That's the conclusion. I've got to stop trying to escape my feelings and deal with them. Not banish them into a deep abyss or the twilight zone but let God heal me then and there and move forward.

It's amazing how God always sends a scripture to comfort me during a season like this (Psalms 34:18 & Psalms 147:3). This is a season, and this too shall pass. A season where I feel like life is being subtracted from me. Everything I make two steps forward spiritually, the devil just pushes me back down the staircase and I've got to begin again. FAITH, I need to add faith to this here equation and fill up on prayers and the word. My soul needs to find rest my soul in Christ alone.

BREATHE, EXHALE, Face the demons and kill them with the word. Don't fight them on your own but let God war on your behalf. We often try to fight flesh in our own strength but that will get us killed on the battlefield. Put on your armour of Christ, not the physical armour, but clothe yourself in Jesus and go with God- like young David the day he slew Goliath. Have you ever sat down and reflected on that story? Or is it like one of those surreal stories we read, gasp in awe and forget it along the way? God chose to reveal himself in that way so that everyone would know God won the victory and not through David's strength, It's not by might, it's not by power but by the SPIRIT says the Lord. What was seemingly improbable with man and defied every human logic was made manifest through Jesus.

The God who caused David to slew his ten thousands, the God of hosts and Angel armies is willing to fight on your behalf. He's willing to wage war on your enemies, and to protect you from the arrows that fly by night (Psalms 91:5).

I will not fear for my God is waging war on my behalf. Let me drown my tears and fears in the river of Trust and let me walk upon the waves of Faith let me stare upon your person and not look down. Let me tightrope across the mountains of despair and rest in the valleys of comfort. Let me continue to trek up the rugged terrain of whatever problems and climb steep hills of doubt but dwell in the pasture and at the brook of grace in the Lord Jesus. Amen.